Never before have my choices been so important.  It really isn't about me anymore it is about them, my sons, everything I decide is also making a choice for them.  Do I go for it and get my Masters as a Nurse Midwife?  Do I keep on with the programming???  Do I go for what will ultimately make me happiest???  I don't know anymore because I don't want to make a bad choice for them.  All I know is that I need to decide soon because I feel like I am stuck on cruise control on a looping highway.  I can't stay in my lane anymore on this cruise control!

Until another brief thought hits me,

L-A